Every finger in the room is pointing at me. I wanna spit in their faces, then I get afraid of what that could bring. I got a bowing ball in my stomache, I got a desert in my mouth. Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now. I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets, looking for a savior, beneath these dirty sheets. I've been raising up my hand, drive another nail in. Just what GOD needs, one more victim...
Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day, I crucify myself. Nothin' I do is good enough for you, crucify myself every day, and my heart is sick of bein' in chains
Got a kick for a dog, beggin' for love. I gotta have my suffering so that I can have my cross. I know a cat named Easter, he says, will you ever learn? You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird. I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets, looking for a savior, beneath these dirty sheets. I've been raising up my hand, drive another nail in. Got enough GUILT to start my own religeon.
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From in the shadow she calls, and in the shadow she finds a way, finds a way. And in the shadow she CRAWLS, clutching her faded photograph. My image under her thumb, yes with a message from my heart. Yes, with a message from my heart.
She's been everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own. Everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own.
And in the doorway the stay, and laugh as violins fill with water. Screams from the BLUEBELLS can't make them go away. Well, I'm not, seventeen, but I've cuts on my knees. Falling down, as the winter takes one more CHERRY TREE.
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Rushin' rivers thread, so thin limitation dreams with the flying pigs turbid blue and the drugstores too safe in their coats and in their do's yeah smother in our hearts a pillow to my dots.
one day, maybe one day, one day she'll be her own
And in the midst there she rides, and castles are burning in my heart and as I twist I hold tight, and I ride to work every morning wondering why "sit in the chair and be good now" and become all that they told you the white coats enter her room and I'm callin my baby, callin' my baby, callin' my baby, callin'
Everybody else's girl, maybe one day she'll be her own...
Excuse me but can I be you for awhile, my dog won't bite if you sit real still. I got the antichrist in the kitchen yelllin' at me again, and I can hear that. Been saved again by the garbage truck. I got somethin' to say you know but NOTHING comes. Yes, I know what you think of me, you never shut up. Yeah I can hear that...
But what if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of his with her name still on it. Hey, but I don't care 'cause sometimes, I said sometimes, I hear my voice and it's been here... Silent all these years.
So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts. What's so amazing about really deep thoughts. Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon, how's that thought for you. My scream got lost in a paper cup, you think there's a heaven where some screams have gone. I got 25 bucks and a cracker, do you think it's enough... To get us there...
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Years go by will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand. Years go by if I'm stripped of my beauty and the orange clouds raining in my head. Years go by will I choke on my tears 'til finally there is nothing left. One more casualty you know we're too EASY easy easy. Well I love the way we communicate, your eyes focus on my funny lip shape. Let's hear what you think of me now, but baby don't look up. The sky is falling. Your mother shows up in a nasty dress, and it's your turn now to stand where I stand. Everybody's looking at you, here take ahold of my hand. Yeah I can hear them...
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So I ran faster, but it caught me here. Yes, my loyalties turned, like my ankle, in the seventh grade. Running after Billy, running after the rain.
These preciuos things, let them bleed. Let them wash away. these precious things, let them break, their hold over me.
He said you're really an ugly girl, but I like the way you play. And I died, but I thanked him. Can you believe that, sick, holding onto his picture, dressing up every day. I wanna smash the faces, of those beauiful BOYS, those Christian boys. So you can make me cum, that doesn't make you Jesus.
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I remember. Yes, in my peach party dress, no one dared. No one cared to tell me where the pretty girls are. Those demigods with their NINE-INCH nails and little facist panties tucked inside the heart of every nice girl...
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Snow can wait, I've forgot my mittens. Wipe my nose, get my new boots on. Get a little warm in my heart when I think of winter. Put my hand in my father's glove. I run off where the DRIFTS GET DEEPER. Sleeping beauty, trips me with a frown. I hear a voice, "You must learn to stand up, for yourself, 'cause I can't always be around."
He says when you gonna make up your mind? When you gonna love you as much as I do? When you gonna make up your mind, 'cause things are gonna CHANGE, so fast. All the white horses are still in bed. I tell you that I'll always want you near, you say that things change, my dear...
Boys get discovered as winter MELTS, flowers competing for the sun. Years go by and I'm here still waiting, withering where some snowman was. Mirror, mirror where's the crystal palace, but I can only can see myself. SKATING, around the truth, who I am, but I know Dad, the ice is getting thin. Hair is gray, and the fire still burning. So many dreams, on the shelf. You says I wanted you to be PROUD of me. I always wanted that myself.
He says when you make up your mind? When you gonna love you as much as I do? When you gonna make up your mind, 'cause things are gonna CHANGE, so fast. All the white horses have gone ahead. I tell you that I'll always want you near, you say that things change, my dear...
And If I die today I'll be the HAPPY phantom. And I'll go chasing, the nuns out in the yard. And I'll run naked, through the streets without my mask on, and I will never need umbrellas in the rain. I'll wake up in strawberry fields every day, and the atrocities of school I can forgive. The HAPPY phantom has no right to bitch.
OO who the time is getting closer. OO who the time to be a ghost. OO who every day we're getting closer. the sun is getting dim, will we pay, for who we been.
So if I die today I'll be the HAPPY phantom, and I'll go wearing my NAUGHTIES like a jewel. They'll be my ticket to the universal opera. There's Judy Garland taking Buddha by by the hand. And then these seven little men get up to dance. They say Confucious does his crossword with a pen. I'm still the angel, to a girl who hates to sin.
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Or will I see you dear and wish I could come back? You found a girl that you could TRULY love again. Will you still call for me when she falls asleep? Or do we soon forget the things, we cannot see?
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China, all the way to New York. I can feel the distance getting close. You're right next to me, but I need an airplane. I can feel the DISTANCE as you breathe.
Sometimes... I think you want me to touch you. How can I, when you build the great WALL around you. In your eyes, I saw a future together. You just look away in the distance.
China... Decorates our table. funny how the cracks don't seem to show. Pour the wine dear. You say we'll take a holiday, but we never can agree on where to go. China, all the way to New York. Maybe you got lost in Mexico.
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You're right next to me. I think that you can hear me. Funny how the distance learns to grow. I can feel the distance, I can feel the distance, I can feel the distance getting close
Look I'm standing naked before you. Don't you want more than my sex. I can scream as loud as your last one, but I can't claim, innocence.
Oh God, could it be the weather? Oh God, why am I here? If love isn't forever, and it's not the weather... Hand me my leather.
I could just pretend that you love me, the night would lose all sense of fear. but why do I need you to love me, when you can't hold, what I hold dear?
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I almost ran over an angel, he had a nice big fat cigar. "In A SENSE," he said, "You're alone here, so if you jump, you best jump far..."
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Go, go, go, go now. Out of the nest it's time. Go, go, go now circus girl, without a safety net. Here, here now don't cry. You raised your hand for the assignment. Tuck those ribbons under your helmet, be a good soldier. First my left foot, then my right behind the other pantyhose running, in the cold.
Mother the car is here. Somebody leave the light on. Green limosine for the redhead. DANCING, dancing girl, and when I dance for him. Somebody leave the light on, just in case I like the dancing. I can remember where I come from.
I walked into your dream, and now I've forgotten how to dream my own dream. You are the CLEVER one aren't you? Brides in veils for you. We told you all of our secrets. All but one, so don't you even try, the phone has been disconnected. Dripping with blood and with and with time and with your advice. Poison me against the MOON.
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I escape into, your escape into our very favorite fearscape. It's across the sky and across my heart, and I cross my legs. Oh my God. First my left foot then my right behind the other. Breadcrumbs lost under the snow.
All the world just stoped now, so you say you don't wanna stay together anymore. Let me take a deep breath babe, if you need me. Me and Neil'll be hangin' out with the DREAM KING Neil says hi by the way I don't believe you're leaving 'cause me and Charles Manson like the same ice cream I think it's that girl and I think there're pieces of me you've never seen maybe she's just pieces of me you've never seen well
All the world is all I am, the black of the blackest ocean and that tear in your hand. All the world is DANGLIN'... danglin'... danglin' for me DARLIN'. You don't know the power that you have with that tear in your hand. Tear in your hand.
Maybe I ain't used to maybes smashing in a cold room cutting my hands up every time I touch you maybe maybe it's time to wave goodbye now time to wave goodbye now caught a ride with the moon I know I know you well well better than I used to HAZE all clouded up my mind in the DAZE of the why it could've never been so you say and I say you know you're full of wish and your "baby baby baby babies" I tell you there're pieces of me you've never seen well.
5 am... friday morning... thursday night... far from sleep... I'm still... up and... driving... can't go home... obviously... so I'll just... change directions... 'cause they'll soon... know where I live... and I... wanna live... go a full tank... and some chips.
It was me... and a gun... and a man... on my back... but I haven't... seen BARBADOS... so I must... get out of this
Yes I wore a slinky red thing does that mean I should spread for you your friends your father Mr. Ed. And I know what this means me and Jesus few years back used to hang and he said "it's your choice babe just remember I don't think you'll be back in 3 days time time so you choose well" tell me what's right is it my right be on my stomache of Fred's Seville and do you know CAROLINA where the biscuits are soft and sweet these things go through your head when there's a man on your back and you're pushed flat on your stomache it's not a classic cadillac...
Yellow bird flying get shot in the wing pretty good year for hunters and christmas parties and I hate and I hate and I hate and I hate elevator music the way we fight the way I'm left here silent
Oh these little earthquakes here we go again these little earthquakes doesn't take much to RIP us into pieces
We danced in graveyards, with vampires until dawn. We laughed in the faces of kings, never afraid to burn. And I hate, and I hate, and I hate, and I hate. Disintegration watching us wither. Black winged roses, that safely change their COLOR. I can't reach you, I can't reach you. Give me life, give me pain, give me myself again.